The Headache Period

I'm literally in the headache period where I've to decide, make life decisions. I've seen this quote on facebook and twitter, and it's true!

A few months ago I'm supposed to ask permission to the toilet, but now I'm to make life decisions.

That makes great sense pal! I'm so undecided, I've been keeping quiet all the time, don't ask me about what I'm gonna study, I think I'll punch you in the face, that's the most sensitive question to me, well, now.

Okay so everybody, including my parents encourage me to apply for EVERYTHING. Then if I'm so blessed again I get their offers, I can take my time to choose what I want. At least I tried, no harm trying right? I'm really really thankful that I've bursary for backup. I feel very blessed, god has been on my side.

Talking about this, a few days ago my dad started to encourage me to go for Sunday service again. My last service was 8 years ago man, 8 years. But to be honest, I don't have any Catholic friends, all my friends are Christians. There are some difference in it. And those old church friends wouldn't know who I am anymore.
Anyway I know it's good to get some spiritual support. Dad said one day I'm gonna go out there alone, without family members, all I have will be just my spirit alone. Isn't it good to have something to guide me to the right path?

Okay I'll think about it and reconsider later.

Wow now I'm staying at home every day, my skin has never been better before! Maybe I've more time for my skin and hair, I can see radiance in my skin HAHAHAHA. Okay. I needa settle the scariest skin issue of all - dark circles -_-
SO, I'm gonna sleep early today!

Good night.

Feel like attaching a photo. Hmm.. okay fine, I wanna attach two. Hahaha!

High calorie but irresistible.

Apa boleh buat?! 

Loads of Photos

Cleared my phone storage!

A few weeks back I realised I met with the problem I met before - low storage problem =_=
I was wondering, what were all the rubbish taking up all my device storage? Apps? So I had to clear all the cache of the apps but I realised it wasn't that effective, my device memory was still low. And I was kinda cheated. I was told I'll have 16GB for my new phone, with a 8GB additional storage from my SD card but what was shown in the phone was only 8GB device storage, which sums up to only 16GB. Honestly that's enough for me but, you know la, humans are greedy.

Scrolling through the apps I downloaded, I just didn't believe my phone LOL. What stupid apps can take up such much space, I just downloaded a few social apps!
Then finally I found out, all the pictures and videos I took went to my phone instead of the SD card, no wonder! Yay, I'm now happy, at least I found a solution to my problem.

I transferred all the pictures and videos onto my pc, and I'm gonna back them up later into my thumb drive, pc can be crazy at times. Like my previous pc, it just went crazy and all the files are gone like that. But I really don't mind what I've lost la, they're just mostly songs and the old time Fahrenheit files. LOL. Doesn't matter hahahahaha.

We have to leave the past and look forward to our future anyway.

Since the pictures are all in my pc now, it'll be super convenient for me to upload them here weeheehee hahaaha. Okay I'll just dumped all the photos here, if I'm not that lazy I'll give them simple captions la :p

Aha. A super delicious waffle I got from Shirlyn. When you're depressed studying, food will be the most
practical thing that will cheer you up and give you an energy boost!

When you're too bored. I was studying Biology till morningbefore the actual Biology SPM exam.

That was the camera pouch LOL. Posting this cause it's hilarious!
And my legs look long. You know la, my legs seldom look long.
HAHAHAHAA.

Kai Ern decorating the Christmas tree.

The "pao gan" day haha it was chap goh meh. Spent our time @City Park.

Work place.

The pantry haha. Spent most of my afternoons here.

The store. 

Me from the top! HAHAHA 

Oh we had sushi that day @Sin Chew Daily HQ in PJ.
Had great time with the XJs!

An "act pro" picture taken by the laukiap Canon digital camera.
Looks not bad!

Oh my naughty Tom. *smacks forehead*

Here's my cutie Jerry! HAHAHA
Tom barks: Kai Ling you're not fair!
KL: Bleh. :p

Next time when I'm free I'll upload more, if not what for I take those photos hahaha. Take photos to keep, I seldom look back those photos I've taken. Might as well post them.

K.

The IKR Moment

Just wanted to do some blogging before I lose my kick to blog. I almost lost it cause I was kinda drowned in Dash's pictures hahaha. I wonder whether it's Xiaxue's humour or Dash's expression that made me laughed like mad woman at hours like this LOL. Without those captions, the pictures wouldn't be as interesting as how they are now, but without those hilarious expressions she couldn't caption too right? So I think both play major roles in making me crazy. Hahaha.

Okay, back to the topic.

Haha whenever I have opinion on something means I'm referring to something that has happened, I wouldn't just talk nonsense out of nothing LOL. Only crazy monkeys do that. (Oh wait, I think I do that sometimes.)
When something happens and people have different views to it right, but this time I guess I'm supposedly to be on Side A but my mind supports Side B instead. Side B has an opposition view so I was like OMO IKR then I just kept quiet. Hahahaa I guess I'm not the only one who are like this, I clearly know who's on my side, like me. Hahahaahahhaaha I can see from the way you talk :p 
So when someone keeps quiet and says nothing about something regarding to myself I better be careful, they're either on the opposition or they're just blur at the moment LOL. These are the potential betrayers and killers who'll stab from behind. O.O Then I'll just die without knowing what happened lol.

Aha. Got something else to say.

People can be more and more rubbishy as they meet new person lol. Or they're originally like that before? We just didn't realize lol. These people are building up hatred in me, they're losing my trust. No big deal, you and me are just friends with benefits now. #tbh

And erm to you who are reading this, I trust you, you're my closest friends, and I don't like strangers to read my posts. Means erm don't give this link to anybody else haha. Cause whenever I find out there are unrelated people reading my entries I gotta trouble myself changing the url again lol. And you'll have trouble tracking down my new url hahahaah :p

I've some photos to be posted! Heehe.

#throwback @Shabu Zen with mum and bro the other day. Pork slices are major turn ons!

Forgive my hiaoness hahaha! Trying out new merging app! Looks good though. 

If the app doesn't work I'm gonna delete it cause it's gonna take up my precious device memory LOL. But this seems like can be kept hehe.

Blah bye.

Shopaholic mood - ON.

I've not shopped seriously for very long.
I wanna buy everything the mall has! O.O hah okay. Lol.

I wanna get myself a new purse a new backpack a new pair of specs a new pair of shoes a new pair of slippers a new pair of lenses new clothes new phone case new watch new pencil pouch new me!

Wait till my next pay, now pk already LOL.

Travelogue-Singapore ( Part 2 )

Okay I almost forgot to do this. Hahahah. Dang fs zzz.

My memory wasn't as vivid as before anymore lol. Apparently my entry will be a lot more shorter than the previous one lolol.

Hmm went back from Raffles Place to Lakeside, I remember we had a normal dinner at the house with the family. After that we spent time with the baby Kai Jie hahaha.
Oh ya all the crazies went down to the poolside for our tuan kang practise cause we were planning to lead txy's together. Then the indian guard came to chase us back at 10pm lol.

Oh I slept on the sofa in the living room. The view outside was like SHIT. HOW CAN IT BE SO PRETTY.
It was a giant transparent glass window in the living room and I guess that's the only natural light source in the living room. Hahahah. :x
Ahar so I slept facing the window, it was opened *as in it's not covered by the curtain, not "open air" lol* and I slept with the city lights and stars and moon and a palm tree in a rectangular frame. Like a picture with motion.

Here I wanna say something.

If I ever have a condominium lot, I will definitely build a glass panel in my room and I will sleep with city lights every night <3

Aww. Hahahahahah.

Ok. Erm woke up. Erm. What did we do? Shit -.-

Eat. Ya we ate breakfast. I remember the Shandy good morning video hahahahahaha. So roughly we had breakfast and made a breakfast video for Shandy. Hmm. Ya. Funny sial.

Hmm then we entered the camp. What I remembered was only Li Jia as my group leader and the slutty bitch as my group member. Damn. Idw to mention.
Can I not mention anything about the camp? It's just.. duh nothing special. I didn't say it isn't fun but just nothing special. You understand? Oh. One thing.
Their camp is damn free loooooo. Hmm. That's all.

Oh erm the camp was situated at Changi Aloha Village. So we could see planes taking off and landing HAHAHAHA not from the track, we see from the resort lol.
Ah one thing I remember most.
We could see an island on the left and another island on the right. I know it's Tekong Island on the right and idk what's on the left. So an old txy told it was Wu Ming Dao. And behind Wu Ming Dao is Malaysia. Idk why I find this memorable hahaha. It's like.. yo I'm so close to Malaysia I could swim back! Lol.

On the last day we went to Orchard Road for a walk and the night scene was very pretty. Frankly speaking it made me anticipate winter christmas even more! I'm gonna experience it once in my life. I must!

Then we sat MRT back to Lavender station, getting ready to go home lol. *why I sound depressing here omg*
The old txy *I really forgot his name* brought Chi Yuan to send us home! I've never seen such dramatic surprise beforeeeee it's so unbelievable and so unexpected!  It's super dramatic laaaa. Aww hahahaa.

Ahar we got back to Malaysia and headed straight to pxy. When we first entered the school it was like empty lol. It was around 4am in the morning so.. erm.. haha. We first saw Kwan then we watched the zao cao. Nothing impressive la I could say. *so bad*
OH OH OH I SAW JIA XINGGGGGG <3
I'm a pedophileeeeeee lol. Wth.

Okay done I related to pxy it's way too far from Sg so erm ya I summarised the travel experience to Sg.
It was fun and a mental growth experience I could say. Learning to be independent not only in Malaysia, surviving in other countries.
I truely thank XJ for the 反正不会死 slogan,  it really helps a lot in my life haahaha.

I'm too lazy to insert picture one by one so imma just dump everything down there.

Breakfast at the house.

Had Vietnam cuisine in a shopping mall at Orchard Road.

Find the point.

Orchard Road with Jia Yong.

In pxy with Cha Yi, Yong Le Jie and Hs. 

Signing off,

#yolo je.

Travelogue-Singapore ( Part 1 )

Disclaimer: I wrote all these and saved them in my phone so you might find some of the timing weird.

Got onto the bus from T1 station just now at around 1215. The bus wasn't punctual but it's okay, we all are Malaysians I understand. Hahaha. 

Slept through all the way from Seremban to Skudai. I woke up to a beautiful city at around 0315. I just love tall buildings and cities filled with lights hahaa. 

And ya! We had a mask session on the bus hahahaha bought the mask from Watsons and had it at 2am midnight. 

The packaging was not bad. Hahaha.

The lights were on when the bus stopped at a rest area. Damn embarrassing cause people going up and down the bus for toilet. I just closed my eyes and acted like I'm asleep hahaha. 

After that we reached the imigration office. As what I thought we indeed went through a machine like how I had when I was in Shen Zhen. 

Alighted the bus again heading to Woodlands. We reached the imigration office in Woodlands and we went for check-in. Without the white card LOL. Got chased out again from the counter and filled the white card on a white console. 

Damn unlucky xia others all queued on a faster side where me and huiqi queued on a line with many kids. And it took like almost 15 minutes before my turn. Damn good. 

Then we went downstairs looking for bus la. We stood awhile on the bus stop, queued syokly but finally we found out we needed tickets for the bus hut but but where the heck is the ticket counter! Went off so embarrassed and found a way so we just walk onto it. We came out to Woodlands street or whatever and found a bus stop not far away. Took the bus to Woodlands mrt station and made our way to Lakeside. 

Huiqi and her cool red dipdyed hair haha.
On the MRT with all our luggages. Omg .-_-

These made us looked like retards!

Woodlands streets in the early morning la. Kinda blurry cause it was taken in the MRT. It's moving okay it's moving!

The place we lived was jiayong's uncle's house. It was quite spacious (for a singaporean) and there was a baby! Spent some time sleeping there cause everyone was tired throughout the journey which took around 7 hours? (Due to our noobness) 

So after that we had breakfast at the house, bathed and went out again. First we went to Victoria Street by MRT. We came down at the Bugis station and walk around to look for mural street art. It was quite tough cause we didn't know the exact place. We even went into a shopping mall and had lunch in Pasta Maniac. The Cheesy Crumble I order was indeed very cheesy so I was full very fast. Next time if I'm to order cheesy dishes I gotta think twice lol.

Then we moved on to Raffles Place for the Merlion but I didn't know Marina Bay Sands was just on the opposite!  Hahahaha the ship is sososososo beautiful I was so amazed!!

Marina Bay Sands.

Huishan said that Minho is staying there possibly hahaha so we are literally inhaling minho exhaled air. *SS* And and and that place was like so damn cool all the men and women walking around were all in suits and OL attire. Then we just took MRT and went back to Lakeside lah, too tired for anything else. Oh ya, huiqi lost her coin pouch there hahahahaha! 

I personally think that this pic is chio cause hs' legs looked long hehehehe. 

Walao I look retarded lol

低头族啊 haiz. 

Compared to them I'm better *pats shoulder* 

LMAO bu yao lian. 

Okay done. I'm lazy ady. Wait for part 2 kbye! 

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Seriously, I get so grumpy these days.
Like yesterday I had my English paper for SPM I couldn't think of the word to be used so I just used a simpler word instead. And wth I remember it now. Why didn't the word fly into my head yesterday. So pokerfac-ing.
And yesterday I wanted to blog with my device but mum was using pps I guess, couldn't download! Ish now I lose all my stories to be blogged. So pokerfac-ing.
I didn't manage to get a good night sleep. So pokerfac-ing.
The next paper will be Sejarah I & II + Accounts II. Can I not study? Cause it's so pokerfac-ing!

You'll see me in a pokerface for the whole day hahahaa.

Oh there's a new app from Singapore I love it so much! The app looks very trendy and smart hahaha. The app itself is trendy LOL. Wait till I change my phone I'm gonna use it alright.

Ok let's talk about the two papers I had. BM was ok if my karangan is ok. And that depends on my marker. English was ok too but I guess my story isn't really suitable? And paper 2 was like zzz. Pokerfac-ing. Pray pray pray pray hard I'll get a kind-hearted marker and pray hard for the graph to be lower this year, I still want my bursary :(
Oh, I got 15k from Sunway. Please convince me to go ._. Still in an undecided state. I couldn't see my future yet!

Oh yeah I miss xjs so much. Like I said the another day it has been one year. I want to meet them so badly! Seriously when I meet them I can forget about everything in the moment, at least I won't think of the matters happening in my life. Cause it's so relishing to be with them mamamamama SPM please end fast!!!
Oh erm I'm gonna strive hard for the big big day. I'm going back with dignity B) I don't think my intention is right. My motivation source sounds so evil and black and.. whatever. But that managed to push me forward so just keep with it. There's no wrong, I'll just keep quiet :x And I'm good at keeping quiet.
Wooo ok I'm gonna sleep for a few minutes more then I'll move on for my studies.
Goodbye!

My Bucket List

This entry has been planned for so long cause it's considered heavy and important to me! These are the goals and experiences I would wanna have so badly D; And some I would want my future bf to join me <3.<3 hahahaha!
I consider myself as an adventurous person, am I? Not those wild stuff but just to try out thrilling activities hahaha. And my bucket list includes my interests!
I would just wish upon the stars and hope that I could achieve at least 75% of my bucket list in 10 years time :)

Alright let's start with boring aims first :

1   Get a degree. *duh*
2   Learn how to skate. Teach me? Hehe.

Here comes the wishlist for myself :

3   Work as a barista.
4   Have 30 pairs of shoes at once.
5   Receive my first bouquet of flowers <3
6   Dip dye my hair. *unicorn colours perhaps HAHA*
7   Go to a drive-in movie.
8   Watch a concert (front seat).
9   Make a cover of a song.

Crazy ideas! :

10  Put mentos in a diet coke.
11  Kiss a dolphin, or seal. xD
12  Order room service.
13  Wear a halloween costume.
14  Milk a cow.
15  Draw faces on eggs in the fridge.

Extreme!

16  Bungee jumping / Cliff jumping.
17  Blob jump
18  Sky diving.
19  Scuba diving.
20  Rock climbing.
21  Ski in a snowy country.
22  Experience zero gravity.
23  Zorb *AGAIN*
24  Ride flying fish *AGAIN*
25  Watch a meteor shower.
26  See the Aurora Borealis/Australis.
27  Sleep under the stars.
28  Travel within Malaysia by the KTM train.
29  Backpack travelling. 5 countries in one go!
30  Shop thrift in Bangkok! Or other better shopping spots :D

Oh no I just wanna check off a few wishes due this year! Will try to accomplish some of them right after SPM :D

I'm hyped! x)

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Not a memorable day.
为你争取的喜悦,如今我独享好了。而独享的快乐,一点也不快乐。
But I can do nothing B)
Thanks anyways, that's the motivation, yup keep it going! Now I look so pitiful that I've to self-motivate hahaha. Idk what's wrong with you, or there's something wrong with me zzz. Getting my decision and opinion distracted by you is seriously stupid. Why didn't I see myself, my eyes were like.. veiled? Skip the topic.
Went to school for the award giving ceremony but THEY JUST FREAKING CANCELED IT. Damn regretted going to school! Tmr I'm not going. Initially I wanted to go for my Addmaths paper since I anticipated so much for it but after consideration, what's the point? I'll get it anyways, what's the point for me to go to school stuck in the school for the whole day just because of that freaking paper 2 which noone will be interested with zzz. Get it on Wednesday lah.
Oh one more thing, I learned a lesson again. Never give high expectations cause when you fall you don't fall among the stars, you'll fall hard on the ground. Teammates taught me this and it just happens in life. Pokerface.
I seem like I'm forever grumpy online and that's the only way for me to expose my inner feelings and pour all my hard feelings ._. Ar Bat Shan told me it's a bad habit. Alrightttt I'll try I'll try...
Trust is a hard thing to achieve, a difficult lesson to learn. I guess I'm very detailed in these minor feelings in every person I just can read through others' action. I really wanna stop growing cause as I grow I seem to be better in realizing those I shouldn't know. Can I ditch the ability to read others' action zzz.
And now as I grow I know, family is always the best for me. Why on earth didn't I realize this last time. #tooyoungtoodumbtorealize
Now I don't wanna leave home. I wanna stay home forever! T^T
There are just all sorts of people outside who treat you in all sorts of ways. None is 100% sincere! Even if you're 99% but you just lack that 1%, you just have to agree to my statement. #Kailingslogic
Pouring trust and sacrificing your own policy isn't worth it when what you get in return isn't in balance with what you've given.
Zzz stop it, isn't good at all to learn these mean stuff. Just act like idk anything zzz. SO INNOCENT OH SO INNOCENT. #stupid
Took a 3 hour nap in the afternoon and I started to cherish the time for naps and sleeps cause SLEEPING IS JUST THE BEST THING TO DO WHENEVER AND WHEREVER! I think I know why 1004 loves to sleep now.
There's always a reason for me to do anything and now I'm switching off my phone to study effectively for a while simply because there's no reason for me to stay here.
Good luck studying wheeee bye :)

Tik tok, oh no!

There's only 16 days left! I gotta speed up then!
Alright after state trials I've never been studying seriously and now I think I gotta start and push myself to the max! Honestly I don't think I'll get any offer from any private institutions or colleges cause my results are just average, there are bunch of psychos out there getting straight A's, how am I going to compete with them? I'm just another ordinary straight A's student with a super ordinary straight A's result -.- There are still geniuses out there whom I can't compete with. Just try to accept the fact that I gotta work hard to achieve what I want when I'm not as smart as others.
Oh yeah it was graduation night last night. Had fun taking photos and I almost tripped on the stage wth. Super maxi dress made me tripped twice, another one on the red carpet runway. Luckily it was just rehersal, did well during the real walk! Another memorable thing was Nicky babyyyy! Everyone of us was lining up to camwhore with him! Hahahahahahhahahahaa awesome. Adorable brother Rachel has. Bock gor erm normal lah. But the first boy who knelt for me should be the one I love. Why him -.- Nvm not counted.
I was super headache with the tiara omg. The lenses and the bobby pins on my heads already made me dizzy and the tiara was just worsening the condition. So I was kinda emo at the start of the event.
Oh btw that is considered "often". -_-
Sometimes I just feel like escaping SPM escaping from school and everything just to travel on my own to anywhere, I want freedom. Mental freedom. Stressless life is what I desire but I know it's never gonna be possible. Zzz.
Like now, I'm studying Bio while blogging, the progress I tell you..really bekcek one! Tonight must must finish Chapter 7 ady. Yesterday I broke my own promise.

Sea. Wide and boundless. Safe and peaceful.
Mountain. Satisfaction and fame. High and scenic.

Overwhelming

Got an award which was totally unexpected yesterday! Sort of making dreams to become reality? Although I made is for fun and didn't expect anything but I'm still happy la of course, it's like getting money from the sky. WHEEEE. And The Xia Yu from SM Sains Rembau. O.O MUAHAHA.

Tomorrow is our big day. MSK o.o I was kinda angry with myself for making reckless decisions but hs told me not to regret on any decisions made so I'll just learn to take it, accept it and take this as a lesson of my life! I don't really think I'll be such reckless again, will I?
So just stay tuned and wait for the photos to be up tomorrow! Hehe.

Got the camera right, so hs will have a camera with her to Japan and I'll have mine to record my life! I think everything will be up on this blog cause I think it's kinda private? Compared to fb Twitter ig etc. So this is only for my closest friends B) whee. I trust you all :)

First attempt with the camera, was trying out the camera but the picture turned out nice and my skin looks so flawless so I decided to put it here! haha. No filter at all dei, camera awesome!

I don't want to rotate it ;p

A few days ago I promised myself to seep earlier but I ended up sleeping late before the night of MSK. Well done kl well done -.- and I haven't got my things done. What to bring tomorrow? NAH THIS IS LEW KAI LING AH. FOREVER LAST MINUTE.
SPM BARU 19 DAYS LEFT AH LEW KAI LINGGGGG.

"ok."

lol.

Plans for tomorrow:
Finish Biology Chapter 7!

Nights!