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Not a memorable day.
为你争取的喜悦,如今我独享好了。而独享的快乐,一点也不快乐。
But I can do nothing B)
Thanks anyways, that's the motivation, yup keep it going! Now I look so pitiful that I've to self-motivate hahaha. Idk what's wrong with you, or there's something wrong with me zzz. Getting my decision and opinion distracted by you is seriously stupid. Why didn't I see myself, my eyes were like.. veiled? Skip the topic.
Went to school for the award giving ceremony but THEY JUST FREAKING CANCELED IT. Damn regretted going to school! Tmr I'm not going. Initially I wanted to go for my Addmaths paper since I anticipated so much for it but after consideration, what's the point? I'll get it anyways, what's the point for me to go to school stuck in the school for the whole day just because of that freaking paper 2 which noone will be interested with zzz. Get it on Wednesday lah.
Oh one more thing, I learned a lesson again. Never give high expectations cause when you fall you don't fall among the stars, you'll fall hard on the ground. Teammates taught me this and it just happens in life. Pokerface.
I seem like I'm forever grumpy online and that's the only way for me to expose my inner feelings and pour all my hard feelings ._. Ar Bat Shan told me it's a bad habit. Alrightttt I'll try I'll try...
Trust is a hard thing to achieve, a difficult lesson to learn. I guess I'm very detailed in these minor feelings in every person I just can read through others' action. I really wanna stop growing cause as I grow I seem to be better in realizing those I shouldn't know. Can I ditch the ability to read others' action zzz.
And now as I grow I know, family is always the best for me. Why on earth didn't I realize this last time. #tooyoungtoodumbtorealize
Now I don't wanna leave home. I wanna stay home forever! T^T
There are just all sorts of people outside who treat you in all sorts of ways. None is 100% sincere! Even if you're 99% but you just lack that 1%, you just have to agree to my statement. #Kailingslogic
Pouring trust and sacrificing your own policy isn't worth it when what you get in return isn't in balance with what you've given.
Zzz stop it, isn't good at all to learn these mean stuff. Just act like idk anything zzz. SO INNOCENT OH SO INNOCENT. #stupid
Took a 3 hour nap in the afternoon and I started to cherish the time for naps and sleeps cause SLEEPING IS JUST THE BEST THING TO DO WHENEVER AND WHEREVER! I think I know why 1004 loves to sleep now.
There's always a reason for me to do anything and now I'm switching off my phone to study effectively for a while simply because there's no reason for me to stay here.
Good luck studying wheeee bye :)