Jinjja

Changed la changed la every single piece of thing existing in this world changed la! Even a single decent molecule of air beside you changed lah!
Aish jinjja.
Slow down the ticks of the minute hand, or reversing it would be better, I wanna see the old figure for once more. Just once?

我毫不费力

我必须很努力，才能做得看起来毫不费力。

可能这就是我的天性吧，我从小就是这样。

看起来是什么都不做什么都不管的人，其实你看不见的我在背后挥洒了多少汗水，就为了那丁点儿虚荣骄傲感。

不知道哪来的自卑，弄得我好像需要一些具体的东西掩盖自己。

我要的只是别人对我实力的赞同。

小时候念书的确实是这样。

我就是在背后下了很多苦工念书，但在别人面前却连书皮都不碰，考出来的成绩当然相当不错。别人也许觉得我毫不费力，其实这可能只是我一直以来的习惯。

小时候衍欣曾经告诉我，我是这样的人。说真的，如果你不说我都没发现。赫赫。

目前我还没觉得这样有什么不好啦，所以就让我继续很努力，让自己做的看起来毫不费力吧。

ps, 有人投诉我写英文所以这里我写华文的帖子了。也有人投诉我写太长所以我剪短了。

其实干嘛我要听你们的 O.O

yay. 不要自恋也不要想酱多。geeheheheheheheeeee.

Fakes in reality

I just did a super fake act. Reality forced me to. aish jinjja.
I really hate that particular group of people but just to show that I don't care? No. Just to obviously tell you I don't want you to care la. Now there's a person sitting beside me seeing me typing -_______-
Ok la. I purposely like that photo for you to see, actually I want you to lead your own life kay. Hurt so much for me don't worth it yknow. As a friend I still cherish you la but sometimes when you're too sticky I feel annoyed.

-This is after a few hours when I wrote the top part.-

Now i pull back what I've said okay.
This useless fella lai de. I told you de la. Dont simply take any action if you don't have any confidence.
So even if you have confidence that is not enough okay, you can't make it till the end everything is useless.
As I said I gave you three months to think wisely and consider nicely so the end this is what you did. I'm not expecting you to continue it but this is what I expected. You not matured enough yet you wanna act like you are. Nah this is what you'll get in the end.
Whatever you said I already know, since the start of the game I already know I shouldn't listen any, cause indeed the ending is what I've expected.
Fail la you.
But I feel honoured too cause this is a big lesson for you, to tell you how immature you are, how careless you are, and how much you don't understand a girl.
I can still remember what have you promised, hahah. But actually I don't give a shit cause I knew it would be like this.
I wished you'll be a little bit different, but you're all the same. In fact although if you're different I just can't.
The fact shows me that you need experiences from mistakes and lessons.
I can't tell all these straightly to you.
I'm not able to.
So if we still have that bond you'll be able to read this, please do read and I'll be honoured to be a part of your lesson of life.
It has been a hard time to you lol.

And I'm glad I made the right choice for myself, for my own good.
Cause you're not reliable. Since you can't endure this.
And those random people stop saying that he's good hor!

I'm so damn sleepy yet I still spend my energy and my precious sleeping time to scold and complain, better be grateful LMAO.

Nitez.

And you, I behsong you now. Yes you -.-

Foul Word

*Foul word* LA. I WAS BLOGGING HALF WAY ACCIDENTALLY TAPPED BACK BUTTON. SO NOW EVERYTHING IS GONE.
NOT EVEN MY DRAFT STILL EXIST.
I typed such a long passage you know. -_-
So now I know what's the importance of saving posts as drafts while you're typing. That's the major usage of "Save As Draft" button lol. No mood to laugh!
Now I don't know whether to sleep or not cause I didn't really watch Running Man today.
But I feel tired right after I typed that sentence so I decided to sleep lah.

Feel so bad. I can only sleep on one side tonight :I
Don't care lah. Zzzz

The Urge

Kinda rubbishy la this siaokia wanna blog in the middle of the night. Lol. Actually I wanna set my title with a word starting with D but I forgot what's the word. Eh rubbish. Didn't study for a month became like this lol.
Like usual la. I can't sleep unless I watch Running Man until 3am. Or maybe do something else as long as it lasts until 3am. I really can't sleep early la. Expect me to sleep at 10 meh.
I remember when I was young, 11pm used to be very late for me and no matter what, crawl or glide I've to get to bed lol. When I was a kid lololol.
Getting more and more sentimental these days, thank to those script-well-written dramas.
Is my life dramatic too?
No lah. Very typical nia.

Actually for me la, being apart is nothing, as long as the spirit and the passion are still held together. If so any obstacles are just cotton candies dropping from the sky trying to block you or attack you or whatever.
But whatever it is, I truly know all these passion will slowly fade away one day. Those experiences will slowly be forgotten. It's the matter of time now. But those memories, really la. It's my treasure throughout my lifetime which can't be replaced by anything. I wasn't regretting on what I've done in fact I embrace my experiences and memories.
Once I was crazy or something every single word I spoke about this I regretted a lot but actually I was super amguk right after I threw those insane thoughts out lol. So I apologized to whoever it is but actually I wanted to apologize to myself for criticizing those I like.
Deep in my heart core I like it a lot kayyy. :P
So now it's the time to leave, to leave my carefree childhood and this will be an end for it. I'm a going-to-be adult. I've to live like an adult or at least act like an adult la lol.
This one year was like a training session of my life, as a symbol or preparation to step into another stage of life. I appreciate what've it thought me, or at least those treasured memories it gave me.

The memories that'll never be buried.
Once and forever.

Actually I wanna end this at "Once and forever" but I've something else to say.
Ok la. I thought you're bad cause you're the big evil controller behind, controlling everything while disguising yourself in front of our eyes.
Cause I think you wouldn't make that move unless you've some motive or whatever you wanna do.
So I asked this someone and this someone told me that we're aware of each other just because you thought I hated you.
Indeed I hated you but it's because I thought you hated me too okay. So now I was thinking to improve whatever that should be improved between us. But still I shouldn't trust you too much. Who knows whether you'll back stab me when I'm off guard.
At least it's getting better now la.

And this person who told me about this, I almost forgot how do you sound like on the phone.
Ah. Time passes so fast. I remember a few years ago my phone bill costs a bomb cause I was talking to you even when I'm bathing lol.

I've no idea what kind of picture to attach in this post, so leave it like that la.

Smiley :)

Oversleeping

WTH I OVERSLEPT -.-

I'M TOTALLY SPEECHLESS NOW -___-

This was what happened.
Owh. I remember I turned off the alarm -.-

Then

Indoorescent

Being an "indoorescent" for kinda long time already it's weird for me to take a step out of the house tomorrow but what to do, Winnie's coming back. FOR ME. Ok la I syok sendiri.

Conflicting thoughts keep spinning in my head. I shouldn't have any conflict now since I've decided but YOU CAN'T CONTROL YOUR MIND RIGHT.

Thinking of: Tomorrow I'm going out leh.

For now I don't feel like going out la but I'm quite sure after tomorrow I'll be the old me lol.

But the thing is I needa wake up early in the morning -.- Usually I wake up at one something kayyyyyy.

So troublesome. Must think of what to wear somemore. At home I can just wear pyjamas for the whole day. Save water save electricity save my energy encourage comfortability LOL. Who wants to see you at home oh right. 

Oh and, Malaysians and Singaporeans are PROS in creating their own words. So do I.

I CREATED TWO WORDS IN ONE POST.

Find yourself la. HAHAHAHAHA shooooooooo I go sleep.

멍~

Just to let the mong you know, when I insert this smiley,

:)

IM LAUGHING AT YOUR 无知ness ok.

那个是虚伪的时候用的smiley.

Sometimes la. I DIDN'T SAY EVERYTIME AH.

But this is real mia wahaha :-) when I have samgei to insert that musketeer dash then I really mean it la. Sometimes when I'm lazy I'll remove it a lso la making no difference with the 虚伪 one lololol.

For example, a simple one,
A: eh you got yr car license dy?
B: no lah i got helicopter license. :D
A: oh ok :) congratz ah :)
*in fact A knows the truth kayyy*

Aiya idk what to say dy la. If you're smart you can figure it out la.
I'm too bored dk what to do so I came here to crap lor.

I ate a packet a maggi. Damn 后悔内疚 now. Ok I don't wanna take dinner later. Lmao.

The ultimate smiley :)

The Truth That You Leave

Lotsa people like this song huh x) WAHAHAHAHAHAHA HYPED.



But I like Yiruma's Maybe also heeeee x)

Life of Pi

Ok la so I heard and saw on twitter, they said Life of Pi is not bad so that day my dad asked what movie we wanna watch. Initially I wanted to choose Rise of Guardians but then dad whatsapp me Life of Pi's movie poster so I picked that.
Another reason is because it's also shown in 3D HAHAHA.
Before going out I grabbed my sweater from the cupboard but later I thought I needed a belt. I got my belt, rushed onto the car *cause I'm always late* , only I realise I forgot my sweater somewhere. gah.

Talking bout the story I was quite shocked. Not as what I expected. But I like it la it's talking bout animals wahaha. The intro is playing indian songs. So I was thinking, Oh shit did I pick the wrong movie or what. The starting was also very boring lor. Talking unrelevant stuff. The main point is describing how an indian boy survived a shipwreck. WITH A BENGAL TIGER. Days and nights passed ans passed I also don't know how could he survive lol. Quite fake xia.
If I'm the one have to survive in the middle of nowhere on the Pacific Ocean I should've died in the first week. lol.

The thing I like the most is the computer effects of the movie la. Like avatar, unbelievable nature phenomenon all that.

But I still wanted to watch Breaking Dawn -.- No choice but to watch with my brother.


Okay just to share,

I saw this post on Facebook I was quite shocked.

JEAN?!

I thought it was Jean Lee "Wu Ying" who commented on my former fu ze ren's post. LOL.

Then I clicked into the profile la. Not that fly. lololololol.

Outlook swapped

Spent one hour I think. :)

Successfully downloaded "Nice Guy" in just 2 days sho happy I can rewatch and rewatch and rewatch B)

Song Joong Ki is so charismatic :3

And I ngongly searched for "A Werewolf Boy" to download. But hs told it's not even out yet lolol. But I saw in Wiki it's out in October woh. idk lah.

Damn touching. The trailer itself is able to make you tear.